Thursday, April 23, 2009

Can a brainwashed fundie be a secheldick person?

One of the interesting points that emerged from the previous post is whether a person who only realizes that his religion isn't the one true religion at age 35 (i.e. me) can truly be called secheldick. I mean, if it's so extremely damn obvious (as I claim) that OJ (and all fundie religions) aren't even remotely true, how come it took me 35 years to figure that out? Am I stupid? How can I possibly claim to be secheldick?

So I try to project my thoughts back to how I felt about religion (and what on earth was I even thinking) pre age 35, but I find that difficult, for 2 reasons:

1. My thoughts and fundamentals are so completely different now, that it's difficult to even comprehend myself back then.

2. I have a terrible memory, and can barely remember what happened last week, never mind 5 years ago.

But, as far as I can tell, back then, the thought of my religion possibly being false just didn't cross my mind. It just wasn't on the agenda of things I thought about. I didn't have doubts, or even many thoughts on the topic. I took it for granted that it was true, since that was the world I had lived in my whole life. I used to have arguments about whether Chareidi or MO was the one true derech, but it never even occurred to me that the whole shebang might be a load of bollocks.

Strange, but true.

Many of the kofrim stories start the same way - 'I realized something wasn't right when my Rebbe insisted that the world was 6,000 years old', or 'I started to have doubts when he told me that Moshe was 20 amos tall, or Bilaam's ass could speak'.

But that never happened to me. I grew up MO, and it was obvious to all of us from a young age that Science was true, Breishis was allegorical, and only crazy frummies held otherwise. I don't recall any Rebbe ever telling me any crazy midrash ever. Possibly, they did and I wasn't paying attention, but I just don't remember it. Science was bichlal not a kashyeh. Heck, my father (z"l) was even a great scientist! We were secheldick MO people, not like the silly frummies.

And what about Biblical Criticism, or all the problems in Nach? How come that never bothered me? I guess the answer is that:

1. I was a Science nerd. I never came into contact with ANE history, Biblical Criticism, or anything of that nature.

2. We mostly learned Baba Kamah. My knowledge of Tenach is abysmal.

3. I never paid much attention in Chumash / Nach lessons anyway.

So, if it's possible for a secheldick person to be completely brainwashed, is it fair of me to mock Hirhurim (for example) ? 

Of course! I was a believer simply because I had never ever seriously thought about it in any depth. As soon as I did that, the obvious truth became obvious. But fundies who debate these topics all day long, and refuse to give in, well they're obviously not secheldick. Or maybe they're just so brainwashed that even being secheldick doesn't help. 

Tzarich Iyun Godol.

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